yesterday...

and I had a bad day. Yes, I Cathy had a really crappy day. Nothing seemed to go right in my world. It affected everybody and everything around me.

I let everything get to me. We even had my parents (who unfortunately saw our bad moods) come over to watch our kids so we could get out running together and go for coffee with friends. What a gift, but we ruined it. Well, our bad moods/fight etc. made us late for our run. We tried to get there and ended up doing a short little brisk power walk (me with my clenched jaw and balled up fists) and then back. We didn't talk rather ignore each other. It was not good. We picked up diapers and back home we went. Sent my parents home early. I bathed Caroline, and we got the kids into bed. I told Cliff I was going to bed after I finished feeding Courtney. So at 9:30 pm I was in bed. I did not say goodnight. I just went to bed in anger. Yup. Not a good way to do things.

So this morning, I heard Cliff come to bed really late. Then Courtney was up. I fed her, then the alarm went off. This morning there were few to little words spoke. I did however mutter yesterday after our walk that I was done. Done with everything. I told him I was done with running, exercise, and that I would consider selling my bike, my camera etc. Just so that things wouldn't be so hard anymore. It is hard to keep fit, and keep a family and keep a happy marriage. It is hard to balance EVERYTHING all at once. Yes, it has been trying around here. I truly feel it is the stress of everything to do with my FIL etc. Not good and creates stress in the family. Unfortunate but true.