Weekend Update

Well, the money is in for the Goo-Be-Gone weight loss competition that officially starts Jan 1st with a photograph of my weight on the scale. It is based on percentage of weight lost. So, that is good. The competition runs until April 1st. So far there are over 20 people competing. I hope to lose 25 pounds in 3 months. And, after the competition is over I will go further by myself and try to go another 25 pounds by July and then the final weight off by October 1st. My plan is to take off 70 pounds by then. Maybe even 80. I will evaluate where I am at when I get there. I also still need to get a new scale. I think ours is 5 pounds lighter or something like that. I want accuracy!! I cannot wait to see those numbers! You will definitely see less of me next year ;D

I finally thought my 'flow' had stopped at 5 weeks on Friday, but it is back AGAIN. It is red too. So frustrating. If it continues like it has been until next weekend, back to the doctor I go to get a check up and make sure all is well. I feel all crampy and stuff. Who knows maybe it is my cycle coming back? Maybe a let down of hormones as Courtney has been feeding less at night? Who knows. All I know is that I am tired of pads and liners, liners and pads.

Today, I went for a pedicure 'and went goth' according to Cliff lol. I didn't do my usual 'Cathy Pink' and went darker like a dark purple! And I got my post baby waxing of all sorts. Now, I feel more like myself which is a good feeling. I feel all fresh lol!

We also are going to get a yearly membership at the local community centre for the whole family. There is the pool, the weight room and fitness classes. Something for all of us. That way we all can get healthy and fit together. We cannot wait. The kids are excited to spend time in the pool with Daddy! I don't do pools until my legs are done...so maybe in '09 eh!

Walking feels so good!

I have been walking a lot with all 6 kids. Pushing 2 in the double stroller to school and back. The weather, although cold has been PERFECT for walking. It feels good to be able to move, without huffing and puffing and having troubles bending down like when I was pregnant. Walking makes me feel more alive, healthy and calm. I even feel better about my body when I walk. Then the trouble is when I look into the mirror at home. Then I wonder who is that person staring back at me? You don't look like Cathy I remember. What happened to FUN CATHY? Where did she go?

I like the person I am inside, but I want the outside to reflect back the person I am in person, and inside. They just do not jive. I have felt like this after the birth of EACH of my kids. With time, I know I will reach my goal. But, I feel impatient. Chill! lol. Chill.

I think I will just not look in the mirror until I can start feeling better about myself. No, I will look in the mirror, and try to come up with ONE positive thing about my looks that I like right now.