Vascular Surgeon Appointment and Monday

Well, my appointment is over. I was told the same thing from from Dr. F as what the Ultrasound Tech told me a couple of weeks back. I need surgery, on both sides to close off the groin veins so that the blood will return and move back up my legs instead of pooling in my veins. I am on the list. The wait right now is 3 months, and I HAVE to stop breastfeeding. But, the good news is that I can defer. So, I have to do some thinking on that. I am not sure what I really want to do.

If I decide to go and have this surgery in 3 months, Coco will be around 5 months old. But the timing is great for ME...not too hot and my legs can start the healing process before bathing suit/running shorts/skirt weather.

Aren't I VEIN lol.

Or, I defer I keep feeding her until she is a year old like all of the other girls. That would take us to before Christmas this year, and a VERY busy time of year too with Courtney's first birthday party etc. Cameron I stopped around feeding around 5 months full time, and done by 6 months. Wow, history is possibly repeating itself?

Oh, what to do. Breastfeeding is so easy, and fast and CHEAP. I am not sure she would even switch to formula yet? Would she even take it? The other girls were not too happy with formula, thus the long year of feeding. Caroline fed to 13.5 months.

Not in the mood to pump for her either. Too much work and time consuming. Maybe I should at least try a bottle? Do I want to offer a bottle? I am not sure. Caroline did will without ANY bottles. From breast to cup. Oh decisions decisions. I would feel so selfish for stopping feeding just to fix ME up. That mother guilt...that mother guilt. And, I wanted to be at my goal weight by the time I had surgery. But, in 3 months I will be down a substantial amount anyways...much lower than in the past. I could be down maybe another 40-60 pounds by then? That would certainly keep me on goal plan! I would HAVE to reach my goal then. EEK.

Anyways, tomorrow is the weigh in. I am doing well and I hope to see a good loss tomorrow. I hopefully meet my goal of 199. I think I am very close.

I will be doing a good workout tonight that is for sure, and I already walked most of the way home from my specialist appointment today.